A weighty issue

I’m curvy, I’m full figured, I’m round. Call me whatever. Weight is an issue for all of us no matter what size. I’m a bigger girl and short so it shows more. I have issues with my back hurting sometimes and finding clothes to be challenge, and finding age appropriate closes even more of a challenge. But the thing is I’m happy. If I don’t lose the weight right away and it takes me awhile, and I cheat a bit here and there, I’m happy, and healthy on top of that. Weight will always be an issue for me and it’s not that I can’t lose it, it just takes me longer. And well motivation is a big part of it. I’m also in a great relationship, and my boyfriend and I just moved in together not to long ago, so there is that honeymoon phase, the relationship freshman 15 that goes with it. But no matter what I’m still here happy.

What prompted me is this article that I read a few ago, and I’ll post it below. This woman lost 180 pounds and still was not happy with herself. It was a psychological thing. And it made me start thinking of a friend of mine. Everything she says, it all starts with her weight. She would be happier in her job, in her life, in finding someone to share her life with if she could start losing weight. And we all know when we’re bigger it sometimes take an emotional and psychological toll on us like my friend. Is it really our weight that causes us to not be happy? Or is it something else we’re not happy about and hide behind our weight as the problem?

Weight loss can be a great motivator in our life and it can also do the exact opposite. I know when I dropped 20 pounds I thought I looked better, but I didn’t feel better because I lost it in an unhealthy way. I was depressed, and wasn’t sleeping and I just stopped eating. Not because I was forcing myself not to eat, but because I was unhappy and didn’t feel hungry. Losing all that weight quickly didn’t make myself feel any better.

We can all look in the mirror no matter what size and say I wish I had a smaller belly, a better butt, smaller nose, a pant size smaller, bigger bust. As a woman we’ll never be happy with our body. And I’m tired of this. I’m tired of having that womanly trigger in me that says something can be changed on me. And I’m not going to do it anymore! If I want to lose weight I will, I will do it because I want my body aches and pains to feel better. I will lose weight for me and not because people look at me like oh my god just why are you like that. And I wish my friend was like this. I wish her happiness in herself to love herself the way she is now and the way she will be years down the road when she is a size 20 or a size 10. I wish all of us to be happy and remember no matter what size that you need to love yourself at any point.

Here is the link to the article:

http://shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/losing-180-pounds-really-does-body-8212-160-163900419.html